... Hurt ...

That is exactly how i feel now...

Once again, my trust is given to a wrong person... Once again, it was taken for granted... as always my trust was never appreciated...

Looking back.. I should have be stronger in mind... I should be just be so cruel...

I have never known that being kind to someone who does not give a sh*t about me could be hurting my own self...


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I know what to do now...

I know to stick with the reasons why i should have left the 1st place...

I know to let go... and truly let go.....

I know to appreciate what i have...

I know to say: "Go away and leave me alone"...

I know just to love and protect myself...


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Its a disgusting feeling when u think of something so so so dirty and mean....

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Sometimes you should not forgive... Sometimes you've got to be selfish... Sometimes you just have to be strong and just think for yourself.. Being too soft and kind might hurt you later on....



Hope this feeling would go so so so soon....

... HE ...

He is...

...A sweet talker...

...A sweet do-er...

...Someone who spoils me rotten...

...Someone who has so much patience with me...

...Someone who understands my feelings even no words are spoken...

...Someone to whom i don't have to put on a performance or any make-up...

...Someone who loves my funny face even when i cross my eyes and being silly...

...Someone who makes me happy as i'm on crack all the time...

...Someone who knows to say sorry when he is wrong.. OR when it is not his fault but i just wanna blame him...

...Someone who always lets me step on his feet when we cuddle...

...Someone who addicts to my cuddle and does not mind to travel to the end of the Earth for it...

...Someone i can talk to about everything, anything and... (wait for it)...EVERYTHING!...

...Someone who says 'I understand' when i'm confused...

...Someone who always puts me 1st...

...Someone who always listens and cares...

...Someone who forgives me no matter what i do...

...Someone who would let me go if that is really what i want because he wants me to be happy...

...Someone who sees me through my best and worst...

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...He is a dream...

COS


....He is too good to be true....


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...HE IS MY SOMEONE SPECIAL...

And


I LOVE HIM!

Because

I'M EVERYTHING I AM BECAUSE HE LOVES ME!

... Scared of losing someone so dear ...

... She is sick ...

... She reminds me of my granddad... The day we found out he had got cancer ... And we lost him forever 3 weeks after that...

...Nothing feels worse than when you know someone so dear is leaving you ... Not to another country... Not to another place ... But leaving forever ... You can't find them anywhere, anywhere even how hard you are willing to look..... Nothing is worse than seeing someone you love suffers through pains but you can not do anything about it...

... She is sick but hopefully not that sick ... She will be okay... This is just my feeling as i remember my grandfather's case..


---> I've learn to love and appreciate people around me, especially people that i love so dear because i know that maybe one day, they would just leave me... Sometimes by choice... Sometimes not ...

But whatever happens, just enjoy and treasure the time you spend with them and the memories you share...

Wish everyone well... and happy ...

The flower of my name ( Ngoc Tram )

Sometimes you feel so down and you start to wonder where life would take you

Every time i feel down like tonight, i think of my name

That's some thing unique, something really me

My full name is Le Ngoc Tram

Ngoc is my mum's name. She loves me so much that she wants to give me her name. Thats why my middle name is Ngoc

Ngoc Tram is a beautiful white flower which is so liveful and strong. The flower of my name is pure as the way it looks. It survives through storms and difficult conditions. My grandfather dearly chose this special name wishing me to be so beautiful and strong...

That's the story of my name which i am always so proud of.

And everytime like tonight, when i feel down, i think of the story how i got my name, i feel happier.. or at least, luckier.... because I love my name a lot.. because i was, i have been and i will always be loved by my family and my friends...


P.s: i am just gonna leave all the negative thoughts behind and go to bed... a new day will come tomorrow....

Just a thought code 02-03-2010

Everything is going just fine for me....

Working problems need to be fixed just a little bit....

I just got back from my holiday in Vietnam. Nothing better than spending time with family. I miss them...

Alan and I are going to get engaged. Everyone seems to be a bit surprised. Deciding to be with someone for the rest of our life is a kinda thing you do it just because you know it right. Being with Alan, i am just who i truly am. I'm happy and bubbly. I can talk to him about every single thing or concern. We laugh out loud together. I feel safe when i'm with him.

^_^

Wish this peaceful feeling lasts forever!